“Tomorrow is the first blank page of a 365-page book. Write a good one.” – Brad Paisley
With a new year comes 365 new pages in which we document our lives. Given everything that’s happened in the last year, it’s safe to say for while now, we don’t know what’s going to happen from one day to the next.
Lately, my pages have been full of stress and worry. In setting intentions to take better care of myself, I’ve found a lot of frustration working it’s way out. If I’m not frustrated by what’s going on in the world, it’s how people treat others. It’s like as much negative energy is trying to get out of me as fast as it can because it knows its not wanted here.
That aside, I’ve been worried, so much so to the point where that one thing is the straw that breaks the camels back, and I’ve ended up in tears. As you know, my boyfriend is not well right now, having needed surgeries last year with abscesses that have caused infections, and now along with another abscess, an infection in his hip bone, will probably be needing more this year. He’s gone into hospital today and won’t be out for a few days at least. That coupled with all the stresses the pandemic gives all of us, has me on edge. I just want him well and home.
Oh, and we’re currently isolating right now after four of my boyfriend’s colleagues have now tested positive for Covid19. And the UK has gone into a full national lockdown as we’re now having tens of thousands (as of the time I’m writing this, today has recorded 60,916 in the last day. The highest number we’ve had in a day since the pandemic began) of cases confirmed every day and hospitals being overwhelmed. So yeah. You get the idea.
There’s lots of change going on right now. With the New Year, people are wanting to make changes in their resolutions or intentions, myself included. We’re all hoping that 2021 will offer some clearing with sunshine, in the dense, dark forest that was 2020. But the approach I’m taking is to take one day at a time. If 2020 has taught me anything, it’s just that, especially in the circumstances we’re in, where we don’t know what’s happening from one day to the next.
Fingers crossed, if all goes well, by spring time I could be getting vaccinated. The UK currently has a level system of demographics they’re working through the get vaccinated. I’m on level 6: a young person with an underlying health condition. So you can bet your arse that when the opportunity to get jabbed comes, I’ll be making sure I’m first in line for it!
I want to be able to make some better changes this year and with our current circumstances, it can, will and has made these intentions very difficult. So how it’s going to happen is like how I said I want to approach this year: one day at a time.
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