Over the course of last week, I submitted four essays as part of the third trimester of my MA before moving on to the final write up. These have been the source of my anxiety and stress for many months, as while I’ve thoroughly enjoyed these modules, I wanted to work really work hard to get them to the best possible standard.
Since submitting them, I’ve felt a massive relief. I don’t have to worry about deadlines for another four months except for tutorials. However, this also means a delayed reaction of heightened anxiety running its course.
Over the last few days, I’ve been trying to calm some anxious feelings I haven’t felt in a long time. I had to stave off a panic attack for the first time in a while, feeling sick to my stomach and my back seizing up. But the good part is it’s starting to pass, thank goodness.
So I’ve been trying to make sure I do self-care, do the things I want to do before I really start knuckling down on my final write up. Fresh air and enjoying the lovely weather we’ve been having has been good. Being out in nature I find definitely helps, and enjoying some new books I’ve book either from the shops or on Kindle.
I’ve been neglecting my diary planning so I’m making a concerted effort to get back on that. As well, making sure I get plenty of my favourite herbal teas down me and making sure I do my exercise.
I can’t say experiencing some of this again has been pleasant, but I keep telling myself: this too shall pass.
All my love,